Do you ever get to a point in your life where you just stop? Maybe it's a gradual process, only to become aware that, wait a minute, the ride has stopped. Or maybe you crash headlong into an invisible something, and you look up from the ground and wonder what on earth just happened?
That happened to me, and what I've learned is that this is the time to go inward. Go inward and be kind to yourself. Outwardly, watch and listen. Let the seasons change and notice the leaves fall. Let people come and go around you. Stop and let the world turn whilst you gently catch your breath.
This year has been one of great upheaval for me. There have been twists and turns all along the journey, and what has felt like a light switch being turned off and on. There has been much negativity combined with family tragedy that has landed at my feet over and over again.
I feel done with letting my energy become scattered. Done aligning myself with that which does not strike true, with that which lacks in kindness and integrity and a higher vision. I am working on discernment so that I can better protect my energy and my sanity, whilst still showing up for the people I love.
I am also working on developing my art the way that I want to develop it.
I'm embracing the weirdness of my vision, my way of thinking and relating to the planet and people and all the things, and letting it do whatever it wants to do. In a conversation with my mother recently where I expressed to her these thoughts, she said in her well-earned wisdom, "Accept whatever the Universe hands you."
There is so much to photography. So much that people will tell you about what gear you need, what you don't need, how to be a photographer, where to go to get the good shots, what is a good composition or not... blah blah blah. All the talking heads on YouTube have all the answers for you, if you want to get lost in the sea of it all.
Well, I have an answer for me and that is - make pictures.
Beyond that, I make pictures in the way that makes me happy, makes me feel excited and inspired.
The image above is aerochrome infrared inspired. The flowers are actually sunflowers, and the peaks in the distance are my home.